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Makin a list...
Posted:Nov 15, 2015 9:22 am
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And checkin it twice
Goin to try to keep everything nice
List of blogs, thoughts, pondering, wishing, and daily fun...

The Fun Stuff - about me

On sex The kind of fg I need __ Sexy sounds he makes -- SomedaysConstant state of arousal -- Intimacy and the moment __ What kind of style __searching forThe other side to casual fwbs

Toys r'us Request to see my toys__New toys

My kinks: My master list for BDSM 2018
Alternative thinkin are you kink friendly update2016 __ Just a view into my kinks
Kinky search, for me and for you __The list __ My kinks bondage
Orgasm study__ Orgasm study__Kinky mind for me

My searches: not currently looking for anyone new.

Tongue Goes in First tonight__Squirty needs towels__Flirty Friday __Sinday morning and The list
another day done__Finding your MOJO
Sinday mornin __Seems I have __ confidence and attraction are they two different things
Photo time Male nude partial nude d15c
A post for some retrospect I suppose -- Trying to sleep -- Lustful thoughtsmind wanders at work

Virtual Symposium
1st time for the 12th VS International Intrigue -- 13th Virtual world and blogs -- 14th vs First dates
15th VS Black and White __ 16th vs Casual relationships __17th The First Time __18th VS Its a Secret&vs18its a secret__19thVS Its science time__20thVS My life as a __VS23 Dreams

Ponderings
Sexy saturdaypenis thoughts__ Adventures in dating land for tues__Mornin ladywood
Carpet service required__Sinday mornin well lunch time__Sex chat __Thirsty Thursday free time
world of words __ Logical right__Friday __ What kind of style
Strokin wat __Where o'where are you hiding


Just for daily FUN
Finally Friday__ Just another day in paradise __ Saturday free time
another chilly winter night j14n16 __ Sexy saturday night j3n16
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Pre-sinday coffee thoughts
Posted:Jul 21, 2018 10:46 am
Last Updated:Jul 21, 2018 11:17 am
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Cougar prowling the ranch (no I'm not the only cougar around), is keeping us busy and now looking at the safety and security of the area. So lets just say its going to be a busy day here.
But I do get a few cups of dark coffee with my butcher brats and hashbrowns.

Its no secret I'm on dating sites searching for men that like me as a person (vs being a crunchy sock on here) so at least he may put the effort into the sex. But in my age grouping the chances of mismatched libidos is pretty high. I am reading into erectile dysfunctions, lower sex drives, and how to cope with them. At least I'm open to learning about the health ussues.

The risk of finding someone great but with a low sex drive is on my mind, because I have spent years with mismatched libidos and the tension that caused....it makes me pretty reluctant to even try and meet. Well probably due in part its because older men that are interested so the risk is real, then try and add on the sexploring aspect along with my daily life interests. Lol

But the one thing that really deters me is the obvious dislike of women, especially older women. I just don't understand why those men are even on dating sites that are designed for people to meet, why don't they just stick to hookup sites or be that straight guy looking for sex with other men.

I already see the ads on here around hating your partner.... and I think I will spend less time perving on here and just find other free porn sites to look at, there has to be some hetero sites out there that don't have an undertone of hate/dislike for women.

But back to the mismatched libidos.... am I willing to give up on dream of lots of sex just to find someone to talk with and even date, because you need to find someone that sees you as a person before any good sex starts...
Reading through the articles on the 'orgasm gap' at least helped me understand that it wasn't just me that is treated like a warm sleeve. Lol

So sexy bloggers,
Orgasm gap in hetero sex encounters...
Mismatched libidos...
The disposable culture we live in...
The selfish and narcissistic socialization ...

There is no utopian place of sensuality and mutual pleasures hidden away in the depths of the online world, its the 'will you fuck her? Swipe left/right'.

Where to go to find those sought out pleasures of the mind and body... Delight my senses with touch, sound, primal thoughts, and hot sexual pleasures.
To feel his warm skin, to listen to his breath quicken as his arousal comes forward, to see the lust in his eye, to feel his touch...............

Where are those casual partners that would like sex when I want sex,... which leaves me looking for a man open to relationship. Lol. Because most men are not interested in sex when I'm horny as fuck.

Where are these mutual pleasures and why are they so hard to find in the fast food lazy society.

Yes I get it, I'm in my 40's and should be on an iceberg being sent out to sea. No need to remind me. So I hope in my next life I either find those passions or I better be asexual. Lol!

The blog about rejection so related to my thoughts, being offered anonymous sex isnt all that great. I know men think it would be awesome to receive messages from random women wanting sex right now....
Reminds me of the older blog "psst hey you random hole, wanna fuck"

Anyhoo,
Cougar to hunt down, trees to clear, dead sheep to bury, coffee is done for the day, hardly any sleep for weeks now... yep its one of those days I just want to be curled up in a lovers arms and blissfully fuck the weekend away.
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Finally friday
Posted:Jul 20, 2018 9:30 am
Last Updated:Jul 20, 2018 10:07 pm
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Ah those where the days.

Enjoy the friday, its 5 o'clock somewhere.
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Almost friday...
Posted:Jul 19, 2018 2:59 pm
Last Updated:Jul 20, 2018 7:07 pm
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Yah! I get to work the wknd ....again...
Wait, thats not relaxing at all.
Lol

Maybe lightening storms will come thru and I can't work outside... yes! Then its toy time.
I woke up last night masturbating, so I think I need a few more orgasms weekly than I allowing myself.

When your body wakes you up because yanno horny!.

Enjoy your day.
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Having options :?
Posted:Jul 18, 2018 1:45 pm
Last Updated:Jul 18, 2018 10:04 pm
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Searching around the interwebs it seems men have far more options than they like to gripe about.
From sex to relationships they have a plethora of potentials to pick from, and they have incredibly attractive women to pick from.
Sure he can lower his physical preferences and go to the bar for the 2 o'clock special, but he wants hot, thin, attractive.

Anyway, searching for the versions that cater to women.... 5 sex surrogates in north America and a handful of esc'rts in Nevada. There are probably more private run establishments that can't advertise but they certainly are not in my city.
I get it that the market isnt the same for women as it is for men, but when the men are pursuing the top 10% of women, some of the rest of us still want hot sex and great dates.
I am hard pressed to find the boyfriend experience never mind sensual sex (which only 1 man in BC offers services around sensual massage).
Far too many are WAY overestimating the quality of the sex we are offered by the fuckboys and hookup guys, by the men that dont really like women, .... just because the offers come in doesn't mean that he sees me as someone worthy of mutual pleasure, most times he just wants to bust a nut while looking at the wall and using me as a masturbatory sleeve. At least a pro would have to be a really good actor bec his reputation is on the line.

But when I started searching for better options I was hard pressed to find legit services. I have been searching for the better experience for a few years now, then learned i had to find someone open to an actual relationship before he would give me good sex, THEN my age did not attract men that where still sexually active unless I count the oral only dudes or the ones that wanted to watch me masturbate or the asexuals, or the ones with ED... .
Out of sheer frustration I ended up searching for services again. Lol
I don't know what you guys are bitching about, the high physical quality of the young women you get to pick from!! No wonder its tough for me to find a date. Lol

Lets just say I'm a bit jealous of how many you get to pick from.
Spare me the "but I want her to like me" bit when you spend soo much time looking for nsa or anonymous sex, especially when you dont even want conversation or to meet first.

Anyhoo,
My eyeballs are sweating from the heat today....
Mulling over future travels, options for sex, .... the market of women like me that just want to be treated fairly and be desired. Lol
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Can you...
Posted:Jul 18, 2018 8:38 am
Last Updated:Jul 18, 2018 9:48 pm
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Enjoy the hump day.
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Safe what?
Posted:Jul 17, 2018 6:35 pm
Last Updated:Jul 18, 2018 10:00 am
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Safer sex not safe sex. Lol
Condoms don't protect you if you bareback oral.
You can get all the std/sti in your mouth and throat...
Plus they don't keep you safe from hsv or hpv.

But they are 98% bullet proof.
Maybe try a full body condom next time!
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Going camping?
Posted:Jul 16, 2018 4:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2018 5:32 pm
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Just remember..... hes not going to ask for a sandwich.
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Just wait a minute..
Posted:Jul 15, 2018 1:26 pm
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2018 6:51 pm
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Stackable livestock.
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Sinday in the badlands
Posted:Jul 15, 2018 10:01 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2018 6:52 pm
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Its another hot one here today
Simple breakfast of two eggs, pancake and coffee. And now off to work for a few hrs...


Adventures in dating land has been really slow, but more because there are far too many attractive men on that site (I think lots of the profiles are fake, or many are attached/married). One lesson that I learned from casual sex is that attractive men will treat you like a crunchy sock. Lol. So I spend more time hiding profiles rather than chatting with them.
I do chuckle when a few demand to see face photos insisting that they are not trophy hunters...only to have them ghost after. So now I don't bother sharing photos if I think he's conventionally attractive.

But why are 'lessons learned' called 'cynical'
If I want to be used as a masturbatory sleeve then I have my pick of attractive guys looking for a cum dump. I am looking for mutually satisfying sex and sexploration, I don't want to be treated like the wipe towel you have on your floor.
BUT men are told from very early age to aim for attractive women, its in thier socialization, so finding the average looking male is just as difficult. Lol.

Some less attractive women enjoy the attention from attractive men on dating sites and especially this site, they just dont want to admit that he's just looking for an easy hole in less attractive women.
I did see a blog from a woman in her 40's, she had a bit of weight and wasn't scoring any 9 or 10's, but she posted about all the attention she gets on here... until someone wrote out that she's only getting that attention because she's open to casual sex and men only see the sex not her. She didn't want to believe it snd she stated she would try a dating site to see if men message her there, then that was the last time her blog was active. Lol. Im thinking she figured it out.

But ya, men in thier 40's will gladly hookup with women in thier age bracket because of the easy sex, but he only sees you as easy sex and nothing more.
Hence why my age limits where set that way when I was open to meeting on here (26-34 and 47-53), I knew my limits and my expectations......... and lessons learned to not do casual sex with men between 38-46.

So
Ladies do you use the men for sex and hope that he puts some effort into it?
If you manage to find one that is into mutual pleasure, how many duds did you have to go through to get to him?
Is it harder to keep on with casual sex when the odds are soo low?


My sexual confidence took a beating with casual sex, I am hoping a pro will be able to help restore some of my confidence with sex and my sensuality. But after 4 years I'm not sure about risking yet another bad date. Lol
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Its wet...
Posted:Jul 14, 2018 10:20 am
Last Updated:Jul 14, 2018 1:31 pm
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I need to take some fly fishing lessons, at least I can fish by myself.

Enjoy your day,
Its going to be a scorcher here.
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Add a post
Posted:Jul 13, 2018 7:59 pm
Last Updated:Jul 15, 2018 10:01 pm
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It said.

Its been on hell of a week I ain't gonna lie...but I do guess that many of you have figured that out already.



There are no excorts in my area or even remotely close to help with my situation. And I do believe that a good wknd of sex would help my mind rest at least for a little while. This lowering my libido is wearing me down and lending to end my days in frustration right quickly. My nights are becoming almost tortured in my restless sleep.
I don't know how you do it..... stuff the genie back in the bottle.

I going to start hiking with my 20lb pack again, see if that helps. Lol

Enjoy the night,
I get to work this weekend on a 11 day stint.
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